Monday, January 23, 2006

My Thirties (Part 4) Back to Jacking Off...Again!!!



I went into a funk after my divorce from Julia just like I did after the divorce from Margaret. This one wasn't nearly as bad though and only lasted a short time. It's probably because I really wanted to get out of the marriage this time because of Julia's cheating on me. There was also no young daughter that I dearly loved and missed to complicate my feelings as there had been with my divorce from my first wife Margaret. I felt like a failure both times even though this time the divorce was definitely not my fault. Divorce can be painful regardless of the circumstances involved. I was pretty determined that I would never make the marriage mistake again...and to this day I haven't! Time heals all wounds though...or at least most of them!


Soon after Julia left I began feeling horny again. The first  couple of times I tried to jack off I couldn't even get my dick hard, although I was eventually able to ejaculate since you don't need a full erection to jack off. I wondered if I was becoming impotent at such a young age. There were still porno theaters around so I started going back to them and soon had no trouble springing big boners and jacking off while watching the porn. Soon I didn't even need the porn to get my pecker to spring to attention and be ready for some exercise. However the VCR had just been introduced so I bought one of those things along with a few porno tapes for my at home viewing and masturbating pleasure. Every little bit of diversion you can find helps when you're trying to get over a personal crisis, a marriage break up in particular!


Later I bought a black and white video camera and occasionally videotaped myself performing my favorite solo activity. The video frame above is from the first jack off video I ever shot of myself with my video camera, in 1977 I believe. Of course I'd done the same thing with my 8mm and Super 8 movie cameras a few times but video made it much easier for us horndogs to produce our own home made porno, even when we were just by ourselves...and yeah I know...that's silly!


So it was back to almost daily jacking off again. It felt strange after four years of Julia taking care of almost all of my sexual needs but I soon got used to doing it myself and jerking off still felt just as good as it always did. Something was missing though. Once you get used to regular blow jobs and pussy as well as the other non-sexual benefits of female companionship, it's sort of hard to do without them. After about six months of moping and jerking off I was about ready to go out and search for some new poontang again! This time I was determined there would be no wedding rings involved!

9 comments:

Elizabeth said...

Mike, why do you have your shoes on?!

Horny Old Guy said...

LOL That is NOT my shoe in the extreme lower left of the frame Elizabeth. I am not sure what it is. I may have had the video camera sitting on a table (although more likely it was on a tripod). I took a close look at the pic and I haven't got a clue. Of course it's been almost 30 years (Wow!) Good question though...thanks for commenting!

Wenchy said...

So... was there more wedding rings to come???

Horny Old Guy said...

No more wedding rings for me Ms. Wenchy! There were more relationships to come but no more weddings. I'm not really anti-marriage either, it just didn't work very well for me!

Swish said...

Enjoyed the read and the photo. I love watching men masturbate, makes me so horny watching them cum. It's great to read about a 'proud' dirty old man. Good luck! Kay

anu said...

Mike, you look awesome there. I loved reading your self sole adventures and relevations.

David said...

Mike
Love the blog (& have linked to my blog - hope that's Ok by you) - keep up the good work.
Despite the proliferation of video's, dvd's, pc's & ipods as a way of getting pornography into the home I still love to visit the good old Porno Cinema. There is something about the films and the atmmosphere of seedy lust that cannot be beaten.

Horny Old Guy said...

Thanks for the kind words people!!!

BekkaPoo said...

I gotta agree with Swish/Kay.. I don't know what's wrong with the younger guys these days though. They are not at all about masturbating for their woman... I love to watch them, but they hate to perform like that. But anyways Horny OG, cool entry..

Are you in touch with any polyamory or (I hate to use this term because it's probably not correct, but here goes anyways) "free love" organizations?