Monday, August 21, 2006
I Wanna Be A Movie Star...Maybe!
Yeah that's my really my dong up there on the big movie screen...but where the fuck is the audience?
There was an ad in the Bay Area Craigslist a couple of weeks ago that went something like "Professional woman filmmaker doing documentary film on masturbation. Seeking male and female volunteers, all ages over 18 for interviews and optional on camera masturbation. No compensation involved. Leave evening phone number if interested." As most of you nice people know by now, jacking off is a subject near and dear to my heart. Whether I would have the "balls" to discuss my favorite solitary activity or actually jack off in front of a movie camera for a real movie is a different matter. Mainly out of curiosity, I answered the ad.
I have to say that the project sort of turns me on! In fact I sprung a boner while I talked to Lynn. I certainly have a passion for jacking off as you all know. I wouldn't even mind being interviewed about my passion. It's something I've never been ashamed to admit that I do. Part of me really wants to participate in the film. And yet...and yet...I'm not sure I could go through with it! Believe it or not, I'm really NOT an exhibitionist! As I've mentioned before I've shot nude still pics and video of myself enjoying my "hobby" as long as I can remember. I've even posted a few pics and video frames (like the one on the left here) on this blog from time to time. However before I started this blog I really never intended for anyone but myself to see this material. I don't believe I ever even showed any of it to my girlfriends over the years. Well with one girlfriend we did videotape ourselves fucking and masturbating several times and we both watched the video but that was a rare exception. Otherwise, I always kept my stash of secret pics and video well hidden, and that's where it remains today.
To be continued (maybe)!