There is a shoe box hidden in the back of my closet with nothing but photos and video of myself in the nude and having sex. The pictures are mostly of myself but there are a few that feature some of my past female companions. This material is in almost every visual format known to man (or woman!)...black and white and color Polaroid snapshots, 35mm color slides, 8mm and Super 8 movie film, black and white and color videotape and even a compilation of all this stuff on a CD-R and a DVD-R. I have of course used a few of these still pictures and movie/video frames to illustrate some of my posts in this blog, especially when these posts dealt with my favorite solitary activity...jacking off!
I'm really not sure why I started taking nude pics of myself although I suspect most amateur photographers, both male and female, have shot a few nude self portraits of themselves, especially in this digital age. In the old days it was pretty difficult to do unless you did your own darkroom work or had a Polaroid camera. Up until the early 1970's, most mainstream commercial labs (the kind the drugstores use) would not return photos with ANY nudity in them even if there was no sexual content. You might get the negatives back but not the prints, although I'm sure those prints became the part of many a private collection! Depictions of any type of hardcore sex including masturbation were just out of the question back then, strictly illegal in fact.
It sort of turned me on looking at those pics although I'm not sure why. I mean I was seeing my self naked in the mirror every day and in those days jacking off just about every day too. What's the fucking big deal about looking at a nude picture of yourself doing the same thing? I don't know...all I can say is that I got a rush out of it. Every once in a while from then on I would shoot a candid nude of myself with my Polaroid. Not an everyday thing you understand...just once in a while. When Polaroid came out with a new camera (called SX-70 as I recall) that took better pictures in color I upgraded to that model. Frankly the only pictures I took with either Polaroid camera were nude pictures of myself and a few snapshots, mostly clothed but including a few nudes, of a couple of girlfriends. More about those photos later in this post.
It wasn't just me that was taking nude pictures of myself and or wives/girlfriends/whores with a Polaroid camera of course! I would bet that more private nude and explicit sex pictures were taken with these instant picture cameras than any other type of picture. I mean you could continue to use your Brownie camera and relatively cheap drugstore processing for your family and Christmas pics and save the more expensive Polaroids for your private nude shots.
All it took was a willing wife or girlfriend and you could shoot the kind of full frontal nudity that you couldn't even find in adult magazines like Playboy. Great for jacking off to when your sweetie was not around! If she would let you shoot her sucking on your weenie or let you use the self timer to shoot you slipping the big salami to her that would be even better! I remember seeing a coffee table book of old nude Polaroids some years ago and some of the pictures were very graphic and very erotic!
Here (primarily for my own amusement!) is that first 8mm. movie sequence, complete and uncensored:
I occasionally repeated my experiment over the years using various 8mm and Super 8 movie cameras and later video camcorders. Video of course made things MUCH easier. You could shoot anything you wanted without worrying about it being seen by lab workers or even worse censored or confiscated. Below is the first the first piece of video I shot with my brand new RCA black and white video camera. You just know what the subject matter was! Wow was I ever that young?
I went through several home video cameras, portable recorders, and camcorders from the Betamax days to present day Mini-DV and DVD. From time to time I've used every one of those gadgets to shoot some footage of me in the nude and usually jerking off. Hey with video you have to be doing something, don't you? When I really got lucky I scored some footage of me "slipping the salami" to my sweetie. More about that shortly.
Below is a 5 minute compilation of movie film and video taken over a period of 35 years, consisting of me engaged in my favorite solitary activity. I put this together one night after a couple too many glasses of wine. All I can tell you is it seemed like a good idea at the time!
Digital still cameras were of course to still photography what video cameras were to movie photography. Shoot all you want of anything you want and look at it immediately! I've used that format too from time to time in recent years to shoot a still nude or jacking off shot of myself. Admittedly as I got older, I shot less of all types of this material. The novelty has long worn off and let's face it...I ain't the (somewhat) handsome young stud I once was. I now look in the mirror in the morning sometimes and say "Whoa! Who is that old fart? It just couldn't be me!" Oh it could be worse I suppose. I still have most of my hair and keep in pretty good shape but I am not the man I once was, at least physically. Those nude pics from thirty to forty years remind me of that time and time again. And yet...I still pull out the camera once in a while and shoot another nude self portrait of myself. Don't ask my why because I don't have an answer.
I also have a videotape which shows my old girlfriend Gloria (from my 50's) and I fucking and performing oral sex on each other. We made it in a motel in Santa Barbara (California) and were both pretty high at the time. Believe me Gloria would have never done that when she was straight and sober! The video is more funny than erotic but I treasure it today. Again there is no way that I would ever put a clip of that little XXX rated video escapade that showed Gloria's face on line. She is still around and would be coming after me if she ever saw it anywhere on line and I wouldn't blame her. Nah it's best to just keep certain things private. An occasional picture of me nude or waving my weenie around (and only right here in this blog when the post calls for it!) is as far as I could ever go in making my nude pics public...and as a shy guy (really!) I'm absolutely amazed that I've done that!
I do have to say that I'm glad that I did take those nude shots of myself over the years though, especially those that I took in my younger years. I never intended for anyone but myself to see them and up until this blog few people ever did. Only a couple of my girlfriends saw them (only because they wanted to) and since I'd been divorced twice before I started taking them neither of my ex wives ever saw them. The jack off stuff has been kept completely private, again at least up until this goofy blog. Just like it's fun to go back and look at my old childhood pictures and my old school pictures, any of my old pictures in fact, I've found it to be fun once in a while to dig out this old shoe box and go through my old nude pictures. It's not something I'm obsessed with you understand. The nude/sex pictures are a small fraction of the photos I've taken of myself, family and friends, and places I've been over the years but I still value them and find them interesting. My only regret is I didn't get the opportunity to start earlier, say when I was about 18, maybe even earlier. I would advise everyone out there to start early, shoot a few nudes of yourself (and your partners if they don't object) from time to time and save them. Someday when you are an old fart like me you may be glad you did!
I do worry once in a while about someone finding my stash after I've gone and I've yet to find a really secure place to hide them. That's my only concern for now, and at my age and since I live alone that is indeed a concern! Hopefully I will soon find a companion for the rest of my life who I can trust to dispose of these pictures (if she wishes) after I've gone. Meanwhile I think I'll whip out the old digital camera (and the old weenie too!) and take a couple more pics to put in that shoe box before I put it back in it's hiding place. To those people who think that nudity is obscene (and I sincerely doubt that there are many of them who read this fucking blog!) I truly feel sorry for you. Look at what happened this week in Virginia (the mass murder at the university) or at the mess that our president has gotten us (the USA) into in Iraq...or the genocide taking place in Darfur! THAT is obscene my friends! Pictures of naked people? Pictures of people having sex? Nope, not obscene at all in my most humble and ancient opinion! Hey have a nice weekend y'all with or without your clothes! I promise there won't be any more naked pics of the Horny Old Guy for a while! Bye bye for now!